When your greatest damnation are going appear before you
Perhaps the loftiness of my person have defiled by the lies told
Who can trust anyone if everybody has something to say
I wish they would say to my face but they can't, they are cowards
They also said that they were my friends and siblings in Christ
But don't feel sorry because you and me are of the same kind.
Perhaps pursue holiness can be of great advantage for the age to come
But is not of great use if you want to have peeps around you always
They will tight with you and show they real face to someone else
Because your standards are too high to stand them
If you knew that in my mind I constantly battle with self
I don't show it up a lot because I want to encourage you with How great is He
I could make an idol of self-abesement and make you call me humble
But that would a wicked way for me to call your attention to myself.
It is time for everybody to know how legalistic I am
Yes, I think I'm better than you and that I obey better than you
Sometimes in the day my satisfaction is in people and not in Christ
Probably I know too much bible and read too many books
And they are of the right ones don't misunderstand me
I think that people owe me attention, yes I am admirable
I'm great and high, can't you see? Can't you see?
Oh is for that reason you are laughing? I've been told that.
I thought you could dream and aim high
But proportionally unbalanced, one more than the other
The standard doesn't fit, the levels aren't the same
Meanwhile you can keep laughing at me because you are in the high
Does it feels that is time to post something theological
That the masses will like, perhaps will say of me that I am wise
Neither of that, how do i dare to steal the glory that belongs to God?
As if I could ? Fool of me, perhaps I will find grace and start again.
It's sad to come to be able to talk and pray with a lot of people and trust none
Because you feel everybody is laughing at you in the back
I wish I just could know the truth and leave you all alone
But you like the game of giving false hopes to a short servant
I just care too much of that which I don't want to care.
Perhaps I keep insisting in a person which I want to forget
Could my soul any longer stop beating me in its way to please me?
I really hope you stare at the pic with the same eyes I do.
I'm not perfect and I'm not ashamed to say it, I may be worse than you
If I ever talked bad about someone I'm worse than them
Because I can't always find my sufficiency in the Lord
I fight for it everyday and the wounds are burning
I guess I was fighting with the sword of my arguments and not His word
I guess I had the helmet of my evasiveness and not His spirit
Could my eyes please stop looking at self and look at Him?
Can my soul sing like the old hymn "It is well", because is satisfied in Him?
I wish I could say to my friends I'm sorry because I expect too much from you
I should expect more of God and be satisfied with Him, is hard and that is my desire
There is an inexplicable joy when I walk in His sufficiency
All I can do in Him who makes me strong becomes all because He is God
I ask myself: how can I sometimes undermine the love of a great God?
Oh Lord show me your sufficiency and your greatness beyond the theological concepts
That it may be a reality in my life as it is in the life of many.
I will worship you God because you precious in my sight and I want you.
Lord, let this legalistic young man come before you so you may help Him
May you deliver me from my hope in people and I see your greatness
May I be content that you are the only one who I can talk to in the whole day.
Can my lips sing psalms while you lead my feet to righteousness
Help me to avoid slander bullets with listening to the remembrance of your promises
Walk in wisdom, find sufficiency in you and wait for that which is to come in Your Will
Help me to be anxious for nothing but in prayer in supplication wait for what is mine
As I decrease of myself I will find your greatness.
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